in the space between the lovers, we are forced to face ourselves
I swung like a pendulum between aching for love and longing to be free from my desire.
Day 154
the mind cannot see what it cannot accept
I often felt crippling anxiety around friends and acquaintances.
Day 81
happiness is an obstacle to wholeness
I had actively searched for and chased after love for more than a decade.
Day 80
sometimes withdrawal feels like affection
I was awakened from my daydreaming by a visceral sexual attraction.
Day 109
there is more truth in fantasy than reality
When I failed to feel positive, I daydreamed.
Day 64
positivity is a tool for self-deception
I was lying to myself in almost every journal entry.
Day 70
achievement and productivity are rooted in survival
The foundation I had built my entire life on cracked, and I was in denial about it.
Day 35
we are all codependent
It was discovered, surprisingly, that family members of alcoholics and other addicts benefit from the addition much like an addict does.
Day 2
we attract what we are
On a seemingly unremarkable night, I found myself rolling on the floor and screaming that I deserved to be loved for all of me.
Day 1